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PART SIX

the dream carrier

featuring: deaths diarythe snowmanthirteen presentsthe next bookthe nightmare of a jewish corpsea newspaper skya visitor a schmunzelerand a final kiss on poisoned cheeks DEATHS DIARY: 1942

It was a year for the ages, like 79, like 1346, to name just a few. Forget the scythe, Goddamn it, I needed a broom or a mop. And I needed a vacation.

A SMALL PIECE OF TRUTH I do not carry a sickle or scythe. I only wear a hooded black robe when its cold. And I dont have those skull-like facial features you seem to enjoy pinning on me from a distance. You want to know what I truly look like? Ill help you out. Find yourself a mirror while I continue.

I actually feel quite self-indulgent at the moment, telling you all about me, me, me. My travels, what I saw in 42. On the other hand, youre a humanyou should understand self-obsession. The point is, theres a reason for me explaining what I saw in that time. Much of it would have repercussions for Liesel Meminger. It brought the war closer to Himmel Street, and it dragged me along for the ride. There were certainly some rounds to be made that year, from Poland to Russia to Africa and back again. You might argue that I make the rounds no matter what year it is, but sometimes the human race likes to crank things up a little. They increase the production of bodies and their escaping souls. A few bombs usually do the trick. Or some gas chambers, or the chitchat of faraway guns. If none of that finishes proceedings, it at least strips people of their living arrangements, and I witness the homeless everywhere. They often come after me as I wander through the streets of molested cities. They beg me to take them with me, not realizing Im too busy as it is. Your time will come, I convince them, and I try not to look back. At times, I wish I could say something like, Dont you see Ive already got enough on my plate? but I never do. I complain internally as I go about my work, and some years, the souls and bodies dont add up; they multiply.

AN ABRIDGED ROLL CALL FOR 1942

The desperate Jewstheir spirits in my lap as we sat on the roof, next to the steaming chimneys. The Russian soldierstaking only small amounts of ammunition, relying on the fallen for the rest of it. The soaked bodies of a French coast beached on the shingle and sand. I could go on, but Ive decided for now that three examples will suffice. Three examples, if nothing else, will give you the ashen taste in your mouth that defined my existence during that year. So many humans. So many colors. They keep triggering inside me. They harass my memory. I see them tall in their heaps, all mounted on top of each other. There is air like plastic, a horizon like setting glue. There are skies manufactured by people, punctured and leaking, and there are soft, coal-colored clouds, beating like black hearts. And then. There is death. Making his way through all of it. On the surface: unflappable, unwavering. Below: unnerved, untied, and undone. In all honesty (and I know Im complaining excessively now), I was still getting over Stalin, in Russia. The so-called second revolutionthe murder of his own people. Then came Hitler. They say that war is deaths best friend, but I must offer you a different point of view on that one. To me, war is like the new boss who expects the impossible. He stands over your shoulder repeating one thing, incessantly: Get it done, get it done. So you work harder. You get the job done. The boss, however, does not thank you. He asks for more. Often, I try to remember the strewn pieces of beauty I saw in that time as well. I plow through my library of stories. In fact, I reach for one now. I believe you know half of it already, and if you come with me, Ill show you the rest. Ill show you the second half of a book thief. Unknowingly, she awaits a great many things that I alluded to just a minute ago, but she also waits for you. Shes carrying some snow down to a basement, of all places. Handfuls of frosty water can make almost anyone smile, but it cannot make them forget. Here she comes. THE SNOWMAN

For Liesel Meminger, the early stages of 1942 could be summed up like this: She became thirteen years of age. Her chest was still flat. She had not yet bled. The young man from her basement was now in her bed.

Q&A How did Max Vandenburg end up in Liesels bed? He fell.

Opinions varied, but Rosa Hubermann claimed that the seeds were sown at Christmas the previous year. December 24 had been hungry and cold, but there was a major bonusno lengthy visitations. Hans Junior was simultaneously shooting at Russians and maintaining his strike on family interaction. Trudy could only stop by on the weekend before Christmas, for a few hours. She was going away with her family of employment. A holiday for a very different class of Germany. On Christmas Eve, Liesel brought down a double handful of snow as a present for Max. Close your eyes, shed said. Hold out your hands. As soon as the snow was transferred, Max shivered and laughed, but he still didnt open his eyes. He only gave the snow a quick taste, allowing it to sink into his lips. Is this todays weather report? Liesel stood next to him. Gently, she touched his arm. He raised it again to his mouth. Thanks, Liesel. It was the beginning of the greatest Christmas ever. Little food. No presents. But there was a snowman in their basement. After delivering the first handfuls of snow, Liesel checked that no one else was outside, then proceeded to take as many buckets and pots out as she could. She filled them with the mounds of snow and ice that blanketed the small strip of world that was Himmel Street. Once they were full, she brought them in and carried them down to the basement. All things being fair, she first threw a snowball at Max and collected a reply in the stomach. Max even threw one at Hans Hubermann as he made his way down the basement steps. Arschloch! Papa yelped. Liesel, give me some of that snow. A whole bucket! For a few minutes, they all forgot. There was no more yelling or calling out, but they could not contain the small snatches of laughter. They were only humans, playing in the snow, in a house. Papa looked at the snow-filled pots. What do we do with the rest of it? A snowman, Liesel replied. We have to make a snowman. Papa called out to Rosa. The usual distant voice was hurled back. What is it now, Saukerl? Come down here, will you! When his wife appeared, Hans Hubermann risked his life by throwing a most excellent snowball at her. Just missing, it disintegrated when it hit the wall, and Mama had an excuse to swear for a long time without taking a breath. Once she recovered, she came down and helped them. She even brought the buttons for the eyes and nose and some string for a snowman smile. Even a scarf and hat were provided for what was really only a two-foot man of snow. A midget, Max had said. What do we do when it melts? Liesel asked. Rosa had the answer. You mop it up, Saumensch, in a hurry. Papa disagreed. It wont melt. He rubbed his hands and blew into them. Its freezing down here. Melt it did, though, but somewhere in each of them, that snowman was still upright. It must have been the last thing they saw that Christmas Eve when they finally fell asleep. There was an accordion in their ears, a snowman in their eyes, and for Liesel, there was the thought of Maxs last words before she left him by the fire.

CHRISTMAS GREETINGS FROM MAX VANDENBURG Often I wish this would all be over, Liesel, but then somehow you do something like walk down the basement steps with a snowman in your hands.

Unfortunately, that night signaled a severe downslide in Maxs health. The early signs were innocent enough, and typical. Constant coldness. Swimming hands. Increased visions of boxing with the Fhrer. It was only when he couldnt warm up after his push-ups and sit-ups that it truly began to worry him. As close to the fire as he sat, he could not raise himself to any degree of approximate health. Day by day, his weight began to stumble off him. His exercise regimen faltered and fell apart, with his cheek against the surly basement floor. All through January, he managed to hold himself together, but by early February, Max was in worrisome shape. He would struggle to wake up next to the fire, sleeping well into the morning instead, his mouth distorted and his cheekbones starting to swell. When asked, he said he was fine. In mid-February, a few days before Liesel was thirteen, he came to the fireplace on the verge of collapse. He nearly fell into the fire. Hans, he whispered, and his face seemed to cramp. His legs gave way and his head hit the accordion case. At once, a wooden spoon fell into some soup and Rosa Hubermann was at his side. She held Maxs head and barked across the room at Liesel, Dont just stand there, get the extra blankets. Take them to your bed. And you! Papa was next. Help me pick him up and carry him to Liesels room. Schnell! Papas face was stretched with concern. His gray eyes clanged and he picked him up on his own. Max was light as a child. Cant we put him here, in our bed? Rosa had already considered that. No. We have to keep these curtains open in the day or else it looks suspicious. Good point. Hans carried him out. Blankets in hand, Liesel watched. Limp feet and hanging hair in the hallway. One shoe had fallen off him. Move. Mama marched in behind them, in her waddlesome way. Once Max was in the bed, blankets were heaped on top and fastened around his body. Mama? Liesel couldnt bring herself to say anything else. What? The bun of Rosa Hubermanns hair was wound tight enough to frighten from behind. It seemed to tighten further when she repeated the question. What, Liesel? She stepped closer, afraid of the answer. Is he alive? The bun nodded. Rosa turned then and said something with great assurance. Now listen to me, Liesel. I didnt take this man into my house to watch him die. Understand? Liesel nodded. Now go. In the hall, Papa hugged her. She desperately needed it. Later on, she heard Hans and Rosa speaking in the night. Rosa made her sleep in their room, and she lay next to their bed, on the floor, on the mattress theyd dragged up from the basement. (There was concern as to whether it was infected, but they came to the conclusion that such thoughts were unfounded. This was no virus Max was suffering from, so they carried it up and replaced the sheet.) Imagining the girl to be asleep, Mama voiced her opinion. That damn snowman, she whispered. I bet it started with the snowmanfooling around with ice and snow in the cold down there. Papa was more philosophical. Rosa, it started with Adolf. He lifted himself. We should check on him. In the course of the night, Max was visited seven times.

MAX VANDENBURGS VISITOR SCORE SHEET Hans Hubermann: 2 Rosa Hubermann: 2 Liesel Meminger: 3

In the morning, Liesel brought him his sketchbook from the basement and placed it on the bedside table. She felt awful for having looked at it the previous year, and this time, she kept it firmly closed, out of respect. When Papa came in, she did not turn to face him but talked across Max Vandenburg, at the wall. Why did I have to bring all that snow down? she asked. It started all of this, didnt it, Papa? She clenched her hands, as if to pray. Why did I have to build that snowman? Papa, to his enduring credit, was adamant. Liesel, he said, you had to. For hours, she sat with him as he shivered and slept. Dont die, she whispered. Please, Max, just dont die. He was the second snowman to be melting away before her eyes, only this one was different. It was a paradox. The colder he became, the more he melted. THIRTEEN PRESENTS

It was Maxs arrival, revisited. Feathers turned to twigs again. Smooth face turned to rough. The proof she needed was there. He was alive. The first few days, she sat and talked to him. On her birthday, she told him there was an enormous cake waiting in the kitchen, if only hed wake up. There was no waking. There was no cake.

A LATE-NIGHT EXCERPT I realized much later that I actually visited 33 Himmel Street in that period of time. It must have been one of the few moments when the girl was not there with him, for all I saw was a man in bed. I knelt. I readied myself to insert my hands through the blankets. Then there was a

resurgencean immense struggle against my weight. I withdrew, and with so much work ahead of me, it was nice to be fought off in that dark little room. I even managed a short, closed-eyed pause of serenity before I made my way out.

On the fifth day, there was much excitement when Max opened his eyes, if only for a few moments. What he predominantly saw (and what a frightening version it must have been close-up) was Rosa Hubermann, practically slinging an armful of soup into his mouth. Swallow, she advised him. Dont think. Just swallow. As soon as Mama handed back the bowl, Liesel tried to see his face again, but there was a soup-feeders backside in the way. Is he still awake? When she turned, Rosa did not have to answer. After close to a week, Max woke up a second time, on this occasion with Liesel and Papa in the room. They were both watching the body in the bed when there was a small groan. If its possible, Papa fell upward, out of the chair. Look, Liesel gasped. Stay awake, Max, stay awake. He looked at her briefly, but there was no recognition. The eyes studied her as if she were a riddle. Then gone again. Papa, what happened? Hans dropped, back to the chair. Later, he suggested that perhaps she should read to him. Come on, Liesel, youre such a good reader these dayseven if its a mystery to all of us where that book came from. I told you, Papa. One of the nuns at school gave it to me. Papa held his hands up in mock-protest. I know, I know. He sighed, from a height. Just . . . He chose his words gradually. Dont get caught. This from a man whod stolen a Jew. From that day on, Liesel read The Whistler aloud to Max as he occupied her bed. The one frustration was that she kept having to skip whole chapters on account of many of the pages being stuck together. It had not dried well. Still, she struggled on, to the point where she was nearly three-quarters of the way through it. The book was 396 pages. In the outside world, Liesel rushed from school each day in the hope that Max was feeling better. Has he woken up? Has he eaten? Go back out, Mama begged her. Youre chewing a hole in my stomach with all this talking. Go on. Get out there and play soccer, for Gods sake. Yes, Mama. She was about to open the door. But youll come and get me if he wakes up, wont you? Just make something up. Scream out like Ive done something wrong. Start swearing at me. Everyone will believe it, dont worry. Even Rosa had to smile at that. She placed her knuckles on her hips and explained that Liesel wasnt too old yet to avoid a Watschen for talking in such a way. And score a goal, she threatened, or dont come home at all. Sure, Mama. Make that two goals, Saumensch! Yes, Mama. And stop answering back! Liesel considered, but she ran onto the street, to oppose Rudy on the mud-slippery road. About time, ass scratcher. He welcomed her in the customary way as they fought for the ball. Where have you been? Half an hour later, when the ball was squashed by the rare passage of a car on Himmel Street, Liesel had found her first present for Max Vandenburg. After judging it irreparable, all of the kids walked home in disgust, leaving the ball twitching on the cold, blistered road. Liesel and Rudy remained stooped over the carcass. There was a gaping hole on its side like a mouth. You want it? Liesel asked. Rudy shrugged. What do I want with this squashed shit heap of a ball? Theres no chance of getting air into it now, is there? Do you want it or not? No thanks. Rudy prodded it cautiously with his foot, as if it were a dead animal. Or an animal that might be dead. As he walked home, Liesel picked the ball up and placed it under her arm. She could hear him call out, Hey, Saumensch. She waited. Saumensch! She relented. What? Ive got a bike without wheels here, too, if you want it. Stick your bike. From her position on the street, the last thing she heard was the laughter of that Saukerl, Rudy Steiner. Inside, she made her way to the bedroom. She took the ball in to Max and placed it at the end of the bed. Im sorry, she said, its not much. But when you wake up, Ill tell you all about it. Ill tell you it was the grayest afternoon you can imagine, and this car without its lights on ran straight over the ball. Then the man got out and yelled at us. And then he asked for directions. The nerve of him . . . Wake up! she wanted to scream. Or shake him. She didnt. All Liesel could do was watch the ball and its trampled, flaking skin. It was the first gift of many.

PRESENTS #2#5 One ribbon, one pinecone. One button, one stone.

The soccer ball had given her an idea. Whenever she walked to and from school now, Liesel was on the lookout for discarded items that might be valuable to a dying man. She wondered at first why it mattered so much. How could something so seemingly insignificant give comfort to someone? A ribbon in a gutter. A pinecone on the street. A button leaning casually against a classroom wall. A flat round stone from the river. If nothing else, it showed that she cared, and it might give them something to talk about when Max woke up. When she was alone, she would conduct those conversations. So whats all this? Max would say. Whats all this junk? Junk? In her mind, she was sitting on the side of the bed. This isnt junk, Max. These are what made you wake up.

PRESENTS #6#9 One feather, two newspapers. A candy wrapper. A cloud.

The feather was lovely and trapped, in the door hinges of the church on Munich Street. It poked itself crookedly out and Liesel hurried over to rescue it. The fibers were combed flat on the left, but the right side was made of delicate edges and sections of jagged triangles. There was no other way of describing it. The newspapers came from the cold depths of a garbage can (enough said), and the candy wrapper was flat and faded. She found it near the school and held it up to the light. It contained a collage of shoe prints. Then the cloud. How do you give someone a piece of sky? Late in February, she stood on Munich Street and watched a single giant cloud come over the hills like a white monster. It climbed the mountains. The sun was eclipsed, and in its place, a white beast with a gray heart watched the town. Would you look at that? she said to Papa. Hans cocked his head and stated what he felt was the obvious. You should give it to Max, Liesel. See if you can leave it on the bedside table, like all the other things. Liesel watched him as if hed gone insane. How, though? Lightly, he tapped her skull with his knuckles. Memorize it. Then write it down for him. . . . It was like a great white beast, she said at her next bedside vigil, and it came from over the mountains. When the sentence was completed with several different adjustments and additions, Liesel felt like shed done it. She imagined the vision of it passing from her hand to his, through the blankets, and she wrote it down on a scrap of paper, placing the stone on top of it.

PRESENTS #10#13 One toy soldier. One miraculous leaf. A finished whistler. A slab of grief.

The soldier was buried in the dirt, not far from Tommy Mllers place. It was scratched and trodden, which, to Liesel, was the whole point. Even with injury, it could still stand up. The leaf was a maple and she found it in the school broom closet, among the buckets and feather dusters. The door was slightly ajar. The leaf was dry and hard, like toasted bread, and there were hills and valleys all over its skin. Somehow, the leaf had made its way into the school hallway and into that closet. Like half a star with a stem. Liesel reached in and twirled it in her fingers. Unlike the other items, she did not place the leaf on the bedside table. She pinned it to the closed curtain, just before reading the final thirty-four pages of The Whistler. She did not have dinner that afternoon or go to the toilet. She didnt drink. All day at school, she had promised herself that she would finish reading the book today, and Max Vandenburg was going to listen. He was going to wake up. Papa sat on the floor, in the corner, workless as usual. Luckily, he would soon be leaving for the Knoller with his accordion. His chin resting on his knees, he listened to the girl hed struggled to teach the alphabet. Reading proudly, she unloaded the final frightening words of the book to Max Vandenburg.

THE LAST REMNANTS OF THE WHISTLER

The Viennese air was fogging up the windows of the train that morning, and as the people traveled obliviously to work, a murderer whistled his happy tune. He bought his ticket. There were polite greetings with fellow passengers and the conductor. He even gave up his seat for an elderly lady and made polite conversation with a gambler who spoke of Amer ican horses. After all, the whistler loved talking. He talked to people and fooled them into liking him, trusting him. He talked to them while he was killing them, torturing and turn ing the knife. It was only when there was no one to talk to that he whistled, which was why he did so after a murder. . . . So you think the track will suit number seven, do you? Of course. The gambler grinned. Trust was already there. Hell come from behind and kill the whole lot of them! He shouted it above the noise of the train. If you insist. The whistler smirked, and he wondered at length when they would find the inspectors body in that brand-new BMW. Jesus, Mary, and Joseph. Hans couldnt resist an incredulous tone. A nun gave you that? He stood up and made his way over, kissing her forehead. Bye, Liesel, the Knoller awaits. Bye, Papa. Liesel! She ignored it. Come and eat something! She answered now. Im coming, Mama. She actually spoke those words to Max as she came closer and placed the finished book on the bedside table, with everything else. As she hovered above him, she couldnt help herself. Come on, Max, she whispered, and even the sound of Mamas arrival at her back did not stop her from silently crying. It didnt stop her from pulling a lump of salt water from her eye and feeding it onto Max Vandenburgs face. Mama took her. Her arms swallowed her. I know, she said. She knew.

FRESH AIR, AN OLD NIGHTMARE, AND WHAT TO DO WITH A JEWISH CORPSE

They were by the Amper River and Liesel had just told Rudy that she was interested in attaining another book from the mayors house. In place of The Whistler, shed read The Standover Man several times at Maxs bedside. That was only a few minutes per reading. Shed also tried The Shoulder Shrug, even The Grave Diggers Handbook,but none of it seemed quite right. I want something new, she thought. Did you even read the last one? Of course I did. Rudy threw a stone into the water. Was it any good? Of course it was. Of course I did, of course it was. He tried to dig another rock out of the ground but cut his finger. Thatll teach you. Saumensch. When a persons last response was Saumensch or Saukerl or Arschloch, you knew you had them beaten. In terms of stealing, conditions were perfect. It was a gloomy afternoon early in March and only a few degrees above freezingalways more uncomfortable than ten degrees below. Very few people were out on the streets. Rain like gray pencil shavings. Are we going? Bikes, said Rudy. You can use one of ours. On this occasion, Rudy was considerably more enthusiastic about being the enterer. Today its my turn, he said as their fingers froze to the bike handles. Liesel thought fast. Maybe you shouldnt, Rudy. Theres stuff all over the place in there. And its dark. An idiot like you is bound to trip over or run into something. Thanks very much. In this mood, Rudy was hard to contain. Theres the drop, too. Its deeper than you think. Are you saying you dont think I can do it? Liesel stood up on the pedals. Not at all. They crossed the bridge and serpentined up the hill to Grande Strasse. The window was open. Like last time, they surveyed the house. Vaguely, they could see inside, to where a light was on downstairs, in what was probably the kitchen. A shadow moved back and forth. Well just ride around the block a few times, Rudy said. Lucky we brought the bikes, huh? Just make sure you remember to take yours home. Very funny, Saumensch. Its a bit bigger than your filthy shoes. They rode for perhaps fifteen minutes, and still, the mayors wife was downstairs, a little too close for comfort. How dare she occupy the kitchen with such vigilance! For Rudy, the kitchen was undoubtedly the actual goal. Hed have gone in, robbed as much food as was physically possible, then if (and only if) he had a last moment to spare, he would stuff a book down his pants on the way out. Any book would do. Rudys weakness, however, was impatience. Its getting late, he said, and began to ride off. You coming? Liesel didnt come. There was no decision to be made. Shed lugged that rusty bike all the way up there and she wasnt leaving without a book. She placed the handlebars in the gutter, looked out for any neighbors, and walked to the window. There was good speed but no hurry. She took her shoes off using her feet, treading on the heels with her toes. Her fingers tightened on the wood and she made her way inside. This time, if only slightly, she felt more at ease. In a few precious moments, she circled the room, looking for a title that grabbed her. On three or four occasions, she nearly reached out. She even considered taking more than one, but again, she didnt want to abuse what was a kind of system. For now, only one book was necessary. She studied the shelves and waited. An extra darkness climbed through the window behind her. The smell of dust and theft loitered in the background, and she saw it. The book was red, with black writing on the spine. Der Traumtrger. The Dream Carrier. She thought of Max Vandenburg and his dreams. Of guilt. Surviving. Leaving his family. Fighting the Fhrer. She also thought of her own dreamher brother, dead on the train, and his appearance on the steps just around the corner from this very room. The book thief watched his bloodied knee from the shove of her own hand. She slid the book from the shelf, tucked it under her arm, climbed to the window ledge, and jumped out, all in one motion. Rudy had her shoes. He had her bike ready. Once the shoes were on, they rode. Jesus, Mary, and Joseph, Meminger. Hed never called her Meminger before. Youre an absolute lunatic. Do you know that? Liesel agreed as she pedaled like hell. I know it. At the bridge, Rudy summed up the afternoons proceedings. Those people are either completely crazy, he said, or they just like their fresh air.

A SMALL SUGGESTION Or maybe there was a woman on Grande Strasse who now kept her library window open for another reasonbut thats just me being cynical, or hopeful. Or both.

Liesel placed The Dream Carrier beneath her jacket and began reading it the minute she returned home. In the wooden chair next to her bed, she opened the book and whispered, Its a new one, Max. Just for you. She started reading. Chapter one: It was quite fitting that the entire town was sleeping when the dream carrier was born. . . . Every day, Liesel read two chapters of the book. One in the morning before school and one as soon as she came home. On certain nights, when she was not able to sleep, she read half of a third chapter as well. Sometimes she would fall asleep slumped forward onto the side of the bed. It became her mission. She gave The Dream Carrier to Max as if the words alone could nourish him. On a Tuesday, she thought there was movement. She could have sworn his eyes had opened. If they had, it was only momentarily, and it was more likely just her imagination and wishful thinking. By mid-March, the cracks began to appear. Rosa Hubermannthe good woman for a crisiswas at breaking point one afternoon in the kitchen. She raised her voice, then brought it quickly down. Liesel stopped reading and made her way quietly to the hall. As close as she stood, she could still barely make out her mamas words. When she was able to hear them, she wished she hadnt, for what she heard was horrific. It was reality.

THE CONTENTS OF MAMAS VOICE What if he doesnt wake up? What if he dies here, Hansi? Tell me. What in Gods name will we do with the body? We cant leave him here, the smell will kill us . . . and we cant carry him out the door and drag him up the street, either. We cant just say, Youll never guess what we found in our basement this morning. . . . Theyll put us away for good.

She was absolutely right. A Jewish corpse was a major problem. The Hubermanns needed to revive Max Vandenburg not only for his sake, but for their own. Even Papa, who was always the ultimate calming influence, was feeling the pressure. Look. His voice was quiet but heavy. If it happensif he dieswell simply need to find a way. Liesel could have sworn she heard him swallow. A gulp like a blow to the windpipe. My paint cart, some drop sheets . . . Liesel entered the kitchen. Not now, Liesel. It was Papa who spoke, though he did not look at her. He was watching his warped face in a turned-over spoon. His elbows were buried into the table. The book thief did not retreat. She took a few extra steps and sat down. Her cold hands felt for her sleeves and a sentence dropped from her mouth. Hes not dead yet. The words landed on the table and positioned themselves in the middle. All three people looked at them. Half hopes didnt dare rise any higher. He isnt dead yet. He isnt dead yet. It was Rosa who spoke next. Whos hungry? Possibly the only time that Maxs illness didnt hurt was at dinner. There was no denying it as the three of them sat at the kitchen table with their extra bread and extra soup or potatoes. They all thought it, but no one spoke. In the night, just a few hours later, Liesel awoke and wondered at the height of her heart. (She had learned that expression from The Dream Carrier, which was essentially the complete antithesis of The Whistler a book about an abandoned child who wanted to be a priest.) She sat up and sucked deeply at the nighttime air. Liesel? Papa rolled over. What is it? Nothing, Papa, everythings good. But the very moment shed finished the sentence, she saw exactly what had happened in her dream.

ONE SMALL IMAGE For the most part, all is identical. The train moves at the same speed. Copiously, her brother coughs. This time, however, Liesel cannot see his face watching the floor. Slowly, she leans over. Her hand lifts him gently, from his chin, and there in front of her is the wide-eyed face of Max Vandenburg. He stares at her. A feather drops to the floor. The body is bigger now, matching the size of the face. The train screams.

Liesel? I said everythings good. Shivering, she climbed from the mattress. Stupid with fear, she walked through the hallway to Max. After many minutes at his side, when everything slowed, she attempted to interpret the dream. Was it a premonition of Maxs death? Or was it merely a reaction to the afternoon conversation in the kitchen? Had Max now replaced her brother? And if so, how could she discard her own flesh and blood in such a way? Perhaps it was even a deep-seated wish for Max to die. After all, if it was good enough for Werner, her brother, it was good enough for this Jew. Is that what you think? she whispered, standing above the bed. No. She could not believe it. Her answer was sustained as the numbness of the dark waned and outlined the various shapes, big and small, on the bedside table. The presents. Wake up, she said. Max did not wake up. For eight more days. At school, there was a rapping of knuckles on the door. Come in, called Frau Olendrich. The door opened and the entire classroom of children looked on in surprise as Rosa Hubermann stood in the doorway. One or two gasped at the sighta small wardrobe of a woman with a lipstick sneer and chlorine eyes. This. Was the legend. She was wearing her best clothes, but her hair was a mess, and it was a towel of elastic gray strands. The teacher was obviously afraid. Frau Hubermann . . . Her movements were cluttered. She searched through the class. Liesel? Liesel looked at Rudy, stood, and walked quickly toward the door to end the embarrassment as fast as possible. It shut behind her, and now she was alone, in the corridor, with Rosa. Rosa faced the other way. What, Mama? She turned. Dont you what Mama me, you little Saumensch ! Liesel was gored by the speed of it. My hairbrush! A trickle of laughter rolled from under the door, but it was drawn instantly back. Mama? Her face was severe, but it was smiling. What the hell did you do with my hairbrush, you stupid Saumensch, you little thief ? Ive told you a hundred times to leave that thing alone, but do you listen? Of course not! The tirade went on for perhaps another minute, with Liesel making a desperate suggestion or two about the possible location of the said brush. It ended abruptly, with Rosa pulling Liesel close, just for a few seconds. Her whisper was almost impossible to hear, even at such close proximity. You told me to yell at you. You said theyd all believe it. She looked left and right, her voice like needle and thread. He woke up, Liesel. Hes awake. From her pocket, she pulled out the toy soldier with the scratched exterior. He said to give you this. It was his favorite. She handed it over, held her arms tightly, and smiled. Before Liesel had a chance to answer, she finished it off. Well? Answer me! Do you have any other idea where you might have left it? Hes alive, Liesel thought. . . . No, Mama. Im sorry, Mama, I Well, what good are you, then? She let go, nodded, and walked away. For a few moments, Liesel stood. The corridor was huge. She examined the soldier in her palm. Instinct told her to run home immediately, but common sense did not allow it. Instead, she placed the ragged soldier in her pocket and returned to the classroom. Everyone waited. Stupid cow, she whispered under her breath. Again, kids laughed. Frau Olendrich did not. What was that? Liesel was on such a high that she felt indestructible. I said, she beamed, stupid cow, and she didnt have to wait a single moment for the teachers hand to slap her. Dont speak about your mother like that, she said, but it had little effect. The girl merely stood there and attempted to hold off the grin. After all, she could take a Watschen with the best of them. Now get to your seat. Yes, Frau Olendrich. Next to her, Rudy dared to speak. Jesus, Mary, and Joseph, he whispered, I can see her hand on your face. A big red hand. Five fingers! Good, said Liesel, because Max was alive. When she made it home that afternoon, he was sitting up in bed with the deflated soccer ball on his lap. His beard itched him and his swampy eyes fought to stay open. An empty bowl of soup was next to the gifts. They did not say hello. It was more like edges. The door creaked, the girl came in, and she stood before him, looking at the bowl. Is Mama forcing it down your throat? He nodded, content, fatigued. It was very good, though. Mamas soup? Really? It was not a smile he gave her. Thank you for the presents. More just a slight tear of the mouth. Thank you for the cloud. Your papa explained that one a little further. After an hour, Liesel also made an attempt on the truth. We didnt know what wed do if youd died, Max. We It didnt take him long. You mean, how to get rid of me? Im sorry. No. He was not offended. You were right. He played weakly with the ball. You were right to think that way. In your situation, a dead Jew is just as dangerous as a live one, if not worse. I also dreamed. In detail, she explained it, with the soldier in her grip. She was on the verge of apologizing again when Max intervened. Liesel. He made her look at him. Dont ever apologize to me. It should be me who apologizes to you. He looked at everything shed brought him. Look at all this. These gifts. He held the button in his hand. And Rosa said you read to me twice every day, sometimes three times. Now he looked at the curtains as if he could see out of them. He sat up a little higher and paused for a dozen silent sentences. Trepidation found its way onto his face and he made a confession to the girl. Liesel? He moved slightly to the right. Im afraid, he said, of falling asleep again. Liesel was resolute. Then Ill read to you. And Ill slap your face if you start dozing off. Ill close the book and shake you till you wake up. That afternoon, and well into the night, Liesel read to Max Vandenburg. He sat in bed and absorbed the words, awake this time, until just after ten oclock. When Liesel took a quick rest from The Dream Carrier, she looked over the book and Max was asleep. Nervously, she nudged him with it. He awoke. Another three times, he fell asleep. Twice more, she woke him. For the next four days, he woke up every morning in Liesels bed, then next to the fireplace, and eventually, by mid-April, in the basement. His health had improved, the beard was gone, and small scraps of weight had returned. In Liesels inside world, there was great relief in that time. Outside, things were starting to look shaky. Late in March, a place called Lbeck was hailed with bombs. Next in line would be Cologne, and soon enough, many more German cities, including Munich. Yes, the boss was at my shoulder. Get it done, get it done. The bombs were comingand so was I. DEATHS DIARY: COLOGNE

The fallen hours of May 30. Im sure Liesel Meminger was fast asleep when more than a thousand bomber planes flew toward a place known as Kln. For me, the result was five hundred people or thereabouts. Fifty thousand others ambled homelessly around the ghostly piles of rubble, trying to work out which way was which, and which slabs of broken home belonged to whom. Five hundred souls. I carried them in my fingers, like suitcases. Or Id throw them over my shoulder. It was only the children I carried in my arms. By the time I was finished, the sky was yellow, like burning newspaper. If I looked closely, I could see the words, reporting headlines, commentating on the progress of the war and so forth. How Id have loved to pull it all down, to screw up the newspaper sky and toss it away. My arms ached and I couldnt afford to burn my fingers. There was still so much work to be done. As you might expect, many people died instantly. Others took a while longer. There were several more places to go, skies to meet and souls to collect, and when I came back to Cologne later on, not long after the final planes, I managed to notice a most unique thing. I was carrying the charred soul of a teenager when I looked gravely up at what was now a sulfuric sky. A group of ten-year-old girls was close by. One of them called out. Whats that? Her arm extended and her finger pointed out the black, slow object, falling from above. It began as a black feather, lilting, floating. Or a piece of ash. Then it grew larger. The same girla redhead with period frecklesspoke once again, this time more emphatically. What is that? Its a body, another girl suggested. Black hair, pigtails, and a crooked part down the center. Its another bomb! It was too slow to be a bomb. With the adolescent spirit still burning lightly in my arms, I walked a few hundred meters with the rest of them. Like the girls, I remained focused on the sky. The last thing I wanted was to look down at the stranded face of my teenager. A pretty girl. Her whole death was now ahead of her. Like the rest of them, I was taken aback when a voice lunged out. It was a disgruntled father, ordering his kids inside. The redhead reacted. Her freckles lengthened into commas. But, Papa, look. The man took several small steps and soon figured out what it was. Its the fuel, he said. What do you mean? The fuel, he repeated. The tank. He was a bald man in disrupted bedclothes. They used up all their fuel in that one and got rid of the empty container. Look, theres another one over there. And there! Kids being kids, they all searched frantically at that point, trying to find an empty fuel container floating to the ground. The first one landed with a hollow thud. Can we keep it, Papa? No. He was bombed and shocked, this papa, and clearly not in the mood. We cannot keep it. Why not? Im going to ask my papa if I can have it, said another of the girls. Me too. Just past the rubble of Cologne, a group of kids collected empty fuel containers, dropped by their enemies. As usual, I collected humans. I was tired. And the year wasnt even halfway over yet. THE VISITOR

A new ball had been found for Himmel Street soccer. That was the good news. The somewhat unsettling news was that a division of the NSDAP was heading toward them. Theyd progressed all the way through Molching, street by street, house by house, and now they stood at Frau Dillers shop, having a quick smoke before they continued with their business. There was already a smattering of air-raid shelters in Molching, but it was decided soon after the bombing of Cologne that a few more certainly wouldnt hurt. The NSDAP was inspecting each and every house in order to see if its basement was a good enough candidate. From afar, the children watched. They could see the smoke rising out of the pack. Liesel had only just come out and shed walked over to Rudy and Tommy. Harald Mollenhauer was retrieving the ball. Whats going on up there? Rudy put his hands in his pockets. The party. He inspected his friends progress with the ball in Frau Holtzapfels front hedge. Theyre checking all the houses and apartment blocks. Instant dryness seized the interior of Liesels mouth. For what? Dont you know anything? Tell her, Tommy. Tommy was perplexed. Well, I dont know. Youre hopeless, the pair of you. They need more air-raid shelters. Whatbasements? No, attics. Of course basements. Jesus, Liesel, you really are thick, arent you? The ball was back. Rudy! He played onto it and Liesel was still standing. How could she get back inside without looking too suspicious? The smoke up at Frau Dillers was disappearing and the small crowd of men was starting to disperse. Panic generated in that awful way. Throat and mouth. Air became sand. Think, she thought. Come on, Liesel, think, think. Rudy scored. Faraway voices congratulated him. Think, Liesel She had it. Thats it, she decided, but I have to make it real. As the Nazis progressed down the street, painting the letters LSR on some of the doors, the ball was passed through the air to one of the bigger kids, Klaus Behrig.

LSR Luft Schutz Raum: Air-Raid Shelter

The boy turned with the ball just as Liesel arrived, and they collided with such force that the game stopped automatically. As the ball rolled off, players ran in. Liesel held her grazed knee with one hand and her head with the other. Klaus Behrig only held his right shin, grimacing and cursing. Where is she? he spat. Im going to kill her! There would be no killing. It was worse. A kindly party member had seen the incident and jogged dutifully down to the group. What happened here? he asked. Well, shes a maniac. Klaus pointed at Liesel, prompting the man to help her up. His tobacco breath formed a smoky sandhill in front of her face. I dont think youre in any state to keep playing, my girl, he said. Where do you live? Im fine, she answered, really. I can make it myself. Just get off me, get off me! That was when Rudy stepped in, the eternal stepper-inner. Ill help you home, he said. Why couldnt he just mind his own business for a change? Really, Liesel said. Just keep playing, Rudy. I can make it. No, no. He wouldnt be shifted. The stubbornness of him! Itll only take a minute or two. Again, she had to think, and again, she was able. With Rudy holding her up, she made herself drop once more to the ground, on her back. My papa, she said. The sky, she noticed, was utterly blue. Not even the suggestion of a cloud. Could you get him, Rudy? Stay there. To his right, he called out, Tommy, watch her, will you? Dont let her move. Tommy snapped into action. Ill watch her, Rudy. He stood above her, twitching and trying not to smile, as Liesel kept an eye on the party man. A minute later, Hans Hubermann was standing calmly above her. Hey, Papa. A disappointed smile mingled with his lips. I was wondering when this would happen. He picked her up and helped her home. The game went on, and the Nazi was already at the door of a lodging a few doors up. No one answered. Rudy was calling out again. Do you need help, Herr Hubermann? No, no, you keep playing, Herr Steiner. Herr Steiner. You had to love Liesels papa. Once inside, Liesel gave him the information. She attempted to find the middle ground between silence and despair. Papa. Dont talk. The party, she whispered. Papa stopped. He fought off the urge to open the door and look up the street. Theyre checking basements to make shelters. He set her down. Smart girl, he said, then called for Rosa. They had a minute to come up with a plan. A shemozzle of thoughts. Well just put him in Liesels room, was Mamas suggestion. Under the bed. Thats it? What if they decide to search our rooms as well? Do you have a better plan? Correction: they did not have a minute. A seven-punch knock was hammered into the door of 33 Himmel Street, and it was too late to move anyone anywhere. The voice. Open up! Their heartbeats fought each other, a mess of rhythm. Liesel tried to eat hers down. The taste of heart was not too cheerful. Rosa whispered, Jesus, Mary On this day, it was Papa who rose to the occasion. He rushed to the basement door and threw a warning down the steps. When he returned, he spoke fast and fluent. Look, there is no time for tricks. We could distract him a hundred different ways, but there is only one solution. He eyed the door and summed up. Nothing. That was not the answer Rosa wanted. Her eyes widened. Nothing? Are you crazy? The knocking resumed. Papa was strict. Nothing. We dont even go down therenot a care in the world. Everything slowed. Rosa accepted it. Clenched with distress, she shook her head and proceeded to answer the door. Liesel. Papas voice sliced her up. Just stay calm, verstehst? Yes, Papa. She tried to concentrate on her bleeding leg. Aha! At the door, Rosa was still asking the meaning of this interruption when the kindly party man noticed Liesel. The maniacal soccer player! He grinned. Hows the knee? You dont usually imagine the Nazis being too chirpy, but this man certainly was. He came in and made as if to crouch and view the injury. Does he know? Liesel thought. Can he smell were hiding a Jew? Papa came from the sink with a wet cloth and soaked it onto Liesels knee. Does it sting? His silver eyes were caring and calm. The scare in them could easily be mistaken as concern for the injury. Rosa called across the kitchen, It cant sting enough. Maybe it will teach her a lesson. The party man stood and laughed. I dont think this girl is learning any lessons out there, Frau . . . ? Hubermann. The cardboard contorted. . . . Frau HubermannI think she teaches lessons. He handed Liesel a smile. To all those boys. Am I right, young girl? Papa shoved the cloth into the graze and Liesel winced rather than answered. It was Hans who spoke. A quiet sorry, to the girl. There was the discomfort of silence then, and the party man remembered his purpose. If you dont mind, he explained, I need to inspect your basement, just for a minute or two, to see if its suitable for a shelter. Papa gave Liesels knee a final dab. Youll have a nice bruise there, too, Liesel. Casually, he acknowledged the man above them. Certainly. First door on the right. Please excuse the mess. I wouldnt worryit cant be worse than some of the others Ive seen today. . . . This one? Thats it.

THE LONGEST THREE MINUTES IN HUBERMANN HISTORY Papa sat at the table. Rosa prayed in the corner, mouthing the words. Liesel was cooked: her knee, her chest, the muscles in her arms. I doubt any of them had the audacity to consider what theyd do if the basement was appointed as a shelter. They had to survive the inspection first.

They listened to Nazi footsteps in the basement. There was the sound of measuring tape. Liesel could not ward off the thought of Max sitting beneath the steps, huddled around his sketchbook, hugging it to his chest. Papa stood. Another idea. He walked to the hall and called out, Everything good down there? The answer ascended the steps, on top of Max Vandenburg. Another minute, perhaps! Would you like some coffee, some tea? No thank you! When Papa returned, he ordered Liesel to fetch a book and for Rosa to start cooking. He decided the last thing they should do was sit around looking worried. Well, come on, he said loudly, move it, Liesel. I dont care if your knee hurts. You have to finish that book, like you said. Liesel tried not to break. Yes, Papa. What are you waiting for? It took great effort to wink at her, she could tell. In the corridor, she nearly collided with the party man. In trouble with your papa, huh? Never mind. Im the same with my own children. They walked their separate ways, and when Liesel made it to her room, she closed the door and fell to her knees, despite the added pain. She listened first to the judgment that the basement was too shallow, then the goodbyes, one of which was sent down the corridor. Goodbye, maniacal soccer player! She remembered herself. Auf Wiedersehen! Goodbye! The Dream Carrier simmered in her hands. According to Papa, Rosa melted next to the stove the moment the party man was gone. They collected Liesel and made their way to the basement, removing the well-placed drop sheets and paint cans. Max Vandenburg sat beneath the steps, holding his rusty scissors like a knife. His armpits were soggy and the words fell like injuries from his mouth. I wouldnt have used them, he quietly said. Im . . . He held the rusty arms flat against his forehead. Im so sorry I put you through that. Papa lit a cigarette. Rosa took the scissors. Youre alive, she said. We all are. It was too late now for apologies. THE SCHMUNZELER

Minutes later, a second knocker was at the door. Good Lord, another one! Worry resumed immediately. Max was covered up. Rosa trudged up the basement steps, but when she opened the door this time, it was not the Nazis. It was none other than Rudy Steiner. He stood there, yellow-haired and good-intentioned. I just came to see how Liesel is. When she heard his voice, Liesel started making her way up the steps. I can deal with this one. Her boyfriend, Papa mentioned to the paint cans. He blew another mouthful of smoke. He is not my boyfriend, Liesel countered, but she was not irritated. It was impossible after such a close call. Im only going up because Mama will be yelling out any second. Liesel! She was on the fifth step. See? When she reached the door, Rudy moved from foot to foot. I just came to see He stopped. Whats that smell? He sniffed. Have you been smoking in there? Oh. I was sitting with Papa. Do you have any cigarettes? Maybe we can sell some. Liesel wasnt in the mood for this. She spoke quietly enough so that Mama wouldnt hear. I dont steal from my papa. But you steal from certain other places. Talk a bit louder, why dont you. Rudy schmunzeled. See what stealing does? Youre all worried. Like youve never stolen anything. Yes, but you reek of it. Rudy was really warming up now. Maybe thats not cigarette smoke after all. He leaned closer and smiled. Its a criminal I can smell. You should have a bath. He shouted back to Tommy Mller. Hey, Tommy, you should come and have a smell of this! What did you say? Trust Tommy. I cant hear you! Rudy shook his head in Liesels direction. Useless. She started shutting the door. Get lost, Saukerl, youre the last thing I need right now. Very pleased with himself, Rudy made his way back to the street. At the mailbox, he seemed to remember what hed wanted to verify all along. He came back a few steps. Alles gut, Saumensch? The injury, I mean. It was June. It was Germany. Things were on the verge of decay. Liesel was unaware of this. For her, the Jew in her basement had not been revealed. Her foster parents were not taken away, and she herself had contributed greatly to both of these accomplishments. Everythings good, she said, and she was not talking about a soccer injury of any description. She was fine. DEATHS DIARY: THE PARISIANS

Summer came. For the book thief, everything was going nicely. For me, the sky was the color of Jews. When their bodies had finished scouring for gaps in the door, their souls rose up. When their fingernails had scratched at the wood and in some cases were nailed into it by the sheer force of desperation, their spirits came toward me, into my arms, and we climbed out of those shower facilities, onto the roof and up, into eternitys certain breadth. They just kept feeding me. Minute after minute. Shower after shower. Ill never forget the first day in Auschwitz, the first time in Mauthausen. At that second place, as time wore on, I also picked them up from the bottom of the great cliff, when their escapes fell awfully awry. There were broken bodies and dead, sweet hearts. Still, it was better than the gas. Some of them I caught when they were only halfway down. Saved you, Id think, holding their souls in midair as the rest of their beingtheir physical shellsplummeted to the earth. All of them were light, like the cases of empty walnuts. Smoky sky in those places. The smell like a stove, but still so cold. I shiver when I rememberas I try to de-realize it. I blow warm air into my hands, to heat them up. But its hard to keep them warm when the souls still shiver. God. I always say that name when I think of it. God. Twice, I speak it. I say His name in a futile attempt to understand. But its not your job to understand. Thats me who answers. God never says anything. You think youre the only one he never answers? Your job is to . . . And I stop listening to me, because to put it bluntly, I tire me. When I start thinking like that, I become so exhausted, and I dont have the luxury of indulging fatigue. Im compelled to continue on, because although its not true for every person on earth, its true for the vast majoritythat death waits for no manand if he does, he doesnt usually wait very long. On June 23, 1942, there was a group of French Jews in a German prison, on Polish soil. The first person I took was close to the door, his mind racing, then reduced to pacing, then slowing down, slowing down. . . . Please believe me when I tell you that I picked up each soul that day as if it were newly born. I even kissed a few weary, poisoned cheeks. I listened to their last, gasping cries. Their vanishing words. I watched their love visions and freed them from their fear. I took them all away, and if ever there was a time I needed distraction, this was it. In complete desolation, I looked at the world above. I watched the sky as it turned from silver to gray to the color of rain. Even the clouds were trying to get away. Sometimes I imagined how everything looked above those clouds, knowing without question that the sun was blond, and the endless atmosphere was a giant blue eye. They were French, they were Jews, and they were you.