فصل 3

Our First Conversation

I finally spoke to Dr. Hew Len for the first time on October 21, 2005.

His full name is Dr. Ihaleakala Hew Len. But he told me to call him “E.”Yes, like the letter in the alphabet. Okay. I can do that. “E” and I probably spent an hour talking on our first phone call. I asked him to tell me the complete story of his work as a therapist.

He explained that he worked at Hawaii State Hospital for three years. The ward where they kept the criminally insane was dangerous. Psychologists quit on a monthly basis. The staff called in sick a lot, or simply quit. People would walk through that ward with their backs against the wall, afraid of being attacked by patients. It was not a pleasant place to live, work, or visit.

Dr. Hew Len or “E” told me he never saw patients professionally. He never counseled with them. He agreed to review their files. While he looked at those files, he would work on himself. As he worked on himself, patients began to heal.

This became even more fascinating when I learned the following:

“After a few months, patients who had been shackled were being 21 allowed to walk freely,” he told me. “Others who had been heavily medicated were getting their medications reduced. And those who had been seen as having no chance of ever being released were being freed.” I was in awe.

“Not only that,” he went on, “but the staff began to enjoy coming to work. Absenteeism and turnover disappeared. We ended up with more staff than we needed, because patients were being released and all the staff was showing up to work.Today that ward is closed.” This is where I had to ask the million-dollar question:

“What were you doing within yourself that caused those people to change?”

“I was simply cleaning the part of me that I shared with them,” he said.

Huh?

I didn’t understand.

Dr. Hew Len explained that total responsibility for your life means that everything in your life—simply because it is in your life—is your responsibility. In a literal sense, the entire world is your creation.

Whew. This is tough to swallow. Being responsible for what I say or do is one thing. Being responsible for what everyone in my life says or does is quite another.

Yet the truth is this: If you take complete responsibility for your life, then everything you see, hear, taste, touch, or in any way experience is your responsibility because it is in your life.

That means the terrorists, the president, the economy—anything you experience and don’t like—is up for you to heal.They don’t exist, in a manner of speaking, except as projections from inside you.

The problem isn’t with them; it’s with you.

And to change them, you have to change yourself.

I know this is tough to grasp, let alone accept or actually live. Blame is far easier than total responsibility. But as I spoke with Dr. Hew Len, I began to realize that healing for him and in ho’oponopono means loving yourself. If you want to improve your life, you have to heal your life. If you want to cure anyone—even a mentally ill criminal—you do it by healing yourself.

I asked Dr. Hew Len how he went about healing himself. What was he doing, exactly, when he looked at those patients’ files?

“I just kept saying ‘I’m sorry’ and ‘I love you’ over and over again,” he explained.

That’s it?

That’s it.

It turns out loving yourself is the greatest way to improve yourself. And as you improve yourself, you improve your world.

As Dr. Hew Len, or “E,” worked at the hospital, whatever came up in him, he turned over to Divinity and asked that it be released. He always trusted. It always worked. Dr. Hew Len would ask himself, “What is going on in me that I have caused this problem, and how can I rectify this problem in me?” Apparently this method of healing from the inside out is what is called Self I-Dentity Ho’oponopono. There appears to be an older version of ho’oponopono that was heavily influenced by missionaries in Hawaii. It involved a facilitator who helped people heal problems by talking them out.When they could cut the cord of a problem, the problem vanished. But Self I-Dentity Ho’oponopono didn’t need a facilitator. It’s all done inside yourself. I was curious and knew I would understand this better in time.

Dr. Hew Len has no materials on his process yet. I offered to help him write a book, but he didn’t seem interested. There is an old video available, which I ordered. He also said to read The User Illusion by Tor Norretranders. Since I’m a bookaholic, I instantly jumped online and ordered it from Amazon.When it arrived, I devoured it.

The book argues that our conscious minds don’t have a clue what is happening. Norretranders writes, “The fact is that every single second, millions of bits of information flood in through our senses. But our consciousness processes only perhaps forty bits a second—at most. Millions and millions of bits are condensed to a conscious experience that contains practically no information at all.” As I understood Dr. Hew Len to say, since we don’t have any true awareness of what is happening in any given moment, all we can do is to turn it all over and trust. It’s all about 100 percent responsibility for everything in your life: everything. He says his work is about cleaning himself. That’s it. As he cleans himself, the world gets clean, because he is the world. All outside of him is projection and illusion.

While some of this sounded Jungian, in the sense that the outer that you see is the shadow side of your own life, what Dr. Hew Len seemed to be describing was beyond all of that. He seemed to be acknowledging that everything is a mirror of yourself, but he also was saying that it is your responsibility to fix everything you experience, and from the inside of yourself by connecting to the Divine. For him, the only way to fix the outer anything is by saying “I love you” to the Divine, which could be described as God, Life, the Universe, or any number of terms for that collective higher power.

Whew. This was quite a conversation. Dr. Hew Len didn’t know me from Adam but he was giving me plenty of his time. And confusing me along the way. He’s almost 70 years old and probably a walking guru to some and a nut case to others.

I was thrilled to have spoken with Dr. Hew Len for the first time, but I wanted more. I clearly didn’t understand what he was telling me. And it would be really easy to resist him or dismiss him. But what haunted me was the story of his using this new method to heal so-called throwaway cases, such as mentally ill criminals.

I knew Dr. Hew Len had an upcoming seminar and I asked him about it.

“What will I get out of it?”

“You will get whatever you get,” he said.

Well, that sounded like the old est training of the 1970s: Whatever you get is what you were supposed to get.

“How many people will be at your seminar?” I asked.

“I keep cleaning so only the people ready to be there will be there,” he said. “Maybe 30, or 50. I never know.”

Before we ended our call, I asked “E” what the signature on his e-mails meant.

“POI means peace of I,” he explained. “It is the peace that surpasses all understanding.”

I didn’t understand what he meant at the time, which, today, makes perfect sense.